Why is God
always testing us? Why does life seem to be one trial after another?”
These were the anguished questions of a young high school girl I taught
many years ago. She was right in her observation — life in this world is
a time of trial. Scripture bears this out: “The life of man on earth is
a warfare!” (Job 7:1).
In fact, from the very beginning of their existence, our first parents
were put to the test: “The Lord God gave man this order: ‘You are free
to eat from any of the trees of the garden except the tree of the
knowledge of good and evil. From that tree you shall not eat; the moment
you eat from it you are surely doomed to die” (Gn 2:16-17). And Eve knew
that this command applied to her as well as to Adam (see Gn 3:2-3).
This warfare becomes even more obvious the moment we begin to strive
earnestly for holiness. Sirach says:
My son, when you come to serve the Lord, prepare yourself for trials. Be
sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity. Cling
to Him, forsake Him not; thus will your future be great. Accept whatever
befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient. For in fire gold is
tested, and worthy men in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and He
will help you; make straight your ways and hope in Him (Sirach 2:1-6).
Why the Trials?
No doubt about it: Life is one long test. But why does God
allow trials and temptations? The answer to this question is very
important because it determines how we look at these experiences in our
own lives and how effectively we deal with them.
The first thing we should understand is that God Himself does not tempt
anyone. To do so would be contrary to His holiness. He cannot lead
anyone into sin.
Then where do temptations come from? From our three spiritual enemies.
St. John calls them “the concupiscence of the eyes, the lust of the
flesh, and the pride of life” (see 1 Jn 2:16). We might describe them
this way: (1) the world or material things with their attractions of
wealth, power, and greed; (2) the flesh, or the powerful attraction to
sensual pleasures without regard to God’s law and purpose for these
pleasures; and (3) the Devil, who urges us to pride, the presumption of
self-reliance, and egotistical vanity.
Consider the example of our first parents. God didn’t lead them into
sin. He gave them the command about the forbidden fruit, but it was the
Devil who tempted them to sin.
Our trials and especially our temptations originate from our disordered
inclinations and passions, which seek their own satisfaction without
regard to God’s law and purpose.
We must conclude, then, that God permits us to be tempted, so that our
love for Him may be known. He Himself doesn’t need to know whether we
love Him. He already knows that. It is we who need to know whether we
love Him.
Every time, then, that we are tempted, we are placed in a situation to
choose between loving Him through obedience or rejecting Him through
disobedience. Jesus tells us, “The one who keeps my commandments is the
one who loves me” (Jn 14:21). Do what is right by keeping His
commandments, and you are telling the Lord that you love Him. Reject His
commandments by disobeying them or neglecting them, and you are telling
the Lord you don’t love Him.
Temptations Teach Humility
But are temptations really necessary? Should we look upon them
as assets or liabilities to our spiritual growth? Actually, God teaches
us many things through our temptations.
First, temptations allow us to grow in the virtue of humility. Humility
is simply recognizing the truth about ourselves. We are God’s creatures.
As such, we are dependent on Him for everything we need, not only our
material needs, but also our spiritual needs. Jesus says, “Without me
you can do nothing” (Jn 15:5). We can do nothing worthy of salvation
without the Lord’s grace.
Temptations have a way of showing us our weakness, because we have to
struggle to find salvation without the Lord’s grace. Temptations have a
way of showing us our weakness, because we have to struggle to overcome
the lure of passion. Confronted with our weakness, we learn humility by
calling upon the Lord for help. Our realization of our need for God is
heightened in our time of struggle.
Furthermore, humility helps to deflate our ego — our pride, vanity,
self-reliance, self-love. This process is extremely important, because
it was pride that caused Lucifer to love the beauty God gave him more
than he loved God Himself. Then it caused him to defy God’s command to
the angels in their trial, in which they had to worship and serve His
divine Son in His human nature. Lucifer’s response to God’s command was:
“I will not serve!”
Our first parents also sinned by pride when the Devil deceived them into
believing that by eating the forbidden fruit, they would become “as
gods” (see Gn 3:4). Pope John Paul II says that through original sin, we
have all inherited that desire to be “as gods.”
This is why many times God will humble someone by an oppressive
temptation or trial after that person has received some extraordinary
grace, or accomplished some significant work for the Lord and His
Church. This happened to St. Paul. He recounts (see 2 Cor 12:1-10) how
he had received an extraordinary revelation in which he was “caught up
into paradise and heard things that cannot be expressed in human speech”
(vv. 3-4). But so that he might not become proud over this revelation,
he said he was given “a thorn in the flesh … an angel of Satan, to beat
me, to keep me from becoming too elated” (v. 7).
The traditional understanding of this “thorn in the flesh” is that it
was a violent temptation of lust. When St. Paul three times asked the
Lord to take it away, the Lord would not, telling him that power is made
perfect in weakness (see vv. 8-9). It was Jesus’ power by grace; it was
Paul’s weakness in the flesh. The temptation kept him humble!
Zeal and Perseverance
Temptations and trials also teach us zeal and perseverance in
the spiritual life. When things are going fine, our fallen human nature
has a tendency to become soft and comfortable. This in turn leads us to
become spiritually negligent and careless.
When God permits trials and temptations to come upon us, on the other
hand, they are like a necessary wake-up call. We are moved to resist our
sins and sinful attachments. In fighting against them, we throw off any
spiritual indifference and apathy. We once again become more attentive
to God and watchful to avoid the occasions of sin.
This fight produces a greater purification in the soul. As the writer G.
K. Chesterton once put it, “It is good when a Christian gets into a lot
of hot water … it keeps him clean!”
Growth in Virtue and Piety
Finally, temptations and trials aid our growth in virtue and
practices of piety. The early Christians used the Greek word ascesis to
describe the effort at growing in virtue. It originally meant an art or
skill, and the effort exerted in learning that skill.
Later it applied to the training of athletes and soldiers, for they were
learning the skills of sports and warfare respectively. These arts
trained them to struggle, to compete, to endure even significant degrees
of pain. The early Christians understood well that there is a similar
experience in the struggle for virtue and piety.
Let me illustrate with an interesting story from the early “desert
fathers,” the leaders of the ancient monastic communities in the
wilderness. There was once an old “abba” (“father” or abbot) who had the
reputation of praying all the time. A young man arrived in the desert to
begin his ascetical training. He happened to ask, “Why do you pray all
the time?”
The abba said, “If you understand me correctly, the Devil taught me to
pray all the time!”
The young man was surprised, almost shocked, to hear that. “The Devil
wouldn’t want you to pray! Why would he ever teach you to pray always!
What do you mean?”
The old abba answered: “When I first arrived in the desert, I was
overjoyed. This was where I had always wanted to come!
“However, I had never been in the desert alone overnight. When nightfall
came, I was afraid in the dark. Were there wild animals, or other
dangers? So in my fear, I stayed awake the whole night and prayed.
“When daybreak came, the fear of the night left me. But now another fear
came upon me: Where was I to get food and drink here in the wilderness?
So I again began to pray earnestly, asking God to help me find something
to eat and water to drink.
“By the end of the day, I had found something, but then the fear of the
darkness of the night returned, and I stayed awake all night to pray for
protection. When daylight returned, there was the fear of finding food
again. This pattern of praying all day and all night went on for some
time.
“Gradually, however, I became familiar with these needs. I no longer was
afraid of the darkness of night, and I had learned to find a daily
supply of food and drink. As these physical trials ended, spiritual
assaults began. Temptations and trials of all kinds came upon me day and
night, and so I resisted them day and night by praying continuously.
“Finally, when I felt I could no longer endure these trials, I called
out to God in earnest prayer, and begged Him to lift these difficulties.
God heard my prayer, and when He lifted these difficulties, I realized
that I was left with the gift of praying all the time!”
No Need to Look for Trouble
Now just because we can benefit from trials and temptations
doesn’t mean we should go out and look for them. There are plenty of
them near at hand, and many of them will eventually find us. After all,
Jesus Himself taught us to pray: “Our Father … lead us not into
temptation, but deliver us from evil.”
We must not put ourselves recklessly into occasions of sin, or foolishly
bring on our own problems. But we should realize that when God permits
troubles, we can draw much good from them for our spiritual growth by
cooperating with His grace. If we seem to be tested continuously in
life, as that young high school girl observed, let us remember that
these are always tests of our love. Let us pray for the grace, and then
work our hardest, to pass each of these tests with flying colors!
Fr. Andrew Apostoli, C.F.R., is a priest of the Franciscan Friars of
the Renewal, St. Felix Friary, 15 Trinity Plaza, Yonkers, NY 10701;
914-476-7279;
www.ministryalliance.com/ youth-evang/fortunaweb.htm.